Continuous Section Break (Self-Analysis)
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jheti
A/N: Prepared in fits and starts since I first got the damn thing, because I'm really rather lazy.XD
My I-pod came to me used, with the previous owner's songs on it, and they're things I like well enough. I've listened to about half of them a few times. They follow a general theme. Even if you don't listen to them closely, they're love songs. Most of the trance ones follow that "Your love! Keeps liftin' me higher" sentiment. There were a few angry break-up alternative rock songs hiding at the bottom, and sad pop and rock songs in-between. It made me wonder things. Like whether the I-pod had followed its owner through a relationship, or if that was their view of the world. What it all meant.
It occurs to me that we can learn about people from the themes and snippets they keep in their I-pods. After all, we listen to them without the interference of others, and if one wants, one can spend hours changing the track order, volume level, album sorting priority...The options are myriad and personal.
I've put things in it of my own, here or there, slowly. And the timbre's different. To start with, I like it louder than the previous owner; my songs are harder for the most part. Even the sappy ones have a thicker bassline or something going on with the percussion. There's an odd, wounded-hippie vibe to my sad songs. My angry songs are the big, overblown anthems that the sulky kids loved when we were all in school together AND TRENT REZNOR WAS OMG BRAND NEW COOL. Some things do not change.
I had to listen to them puddled together by the way iTunes handles songs that just get tossed in and not sorted in order to see the patterns emerging. Between the tracks is a general feeling that the universe is impersonal, but intimate, and harsh, but not unfair on purpose. (My fascination for things revolving around states of change has not appeared. It may, later on, as my collection improves, but I'm not sure.)
Emancipation is not independence, and independence is not power, and power is all about abuses and excess of various kinds.
I'm such a cheerful person. XD
Lyrically: one line from every single song* on my I-pod!
*that has lyrics. Also, some are couplets, or technically two lines. Most are out of sequence.
How 'bout that tricky music
I'm not a woman, I'll make your world cold
I want to push it right over the line
Confusion holds my head, and still you hold me
The everlasting scream is on the way
Anybody with a heart votes love
She moves right through me, her wicked ramble way
Don't forget, you are alive, you are alive
I feel wonderful, I could skydive from the moon
Come on, use it, let's get through it
I'm your monster, what's hiding in your shadow
Sometimes, you just get lucky
Take second best, put me to the test
Does it make you want to cry?
Why can't you let me be the way I was before, the way I was before
I don't even care about the way I feel today
My father's on his knees again, and he never told no lies
God is god, god is god, god is god
In studded crown, this thief of souls
I've felt this way before, so insecure
And it's comin' round, to run away, or disappear
They're all there and all they see is nothin' new
How much of you will there be left for me to save?
I put your letters upstairs, but it's no good because you're everywhere
Hey, smilin' strange, you're lookin' happily deranged
She sleeps with her saddle on, gets up and rides at dawn, nobody knows what's wrong
Summer baby, come on baby, show me the town
I see stars! Can you see them, too?
I have nothing to give, I have so much to lose
And I get caught up when the rage in me subsides
I took a walk around the world to ease my troubled mind
This is how it's meant to be, I just want you to believe
Diving, whatever it may take, I keep on trying
Take me away, a million miles away from here
I'm tired of thinking, afraid of letting go, where's the meaning?
Next time there's a rainbow, LOOK UP! You'll feel better
He didn't even say goodbye, he didn't take the time to lie
There's nothing but the rain, no footsteps on the ground
Three o' clock in the morning when my mind is dawning, I remember what I've done and I cry
'Til I can get my satisfaction, my satisfaction, my satisfaction
Hold your head up, movin' on
Has he taken any time to show you what you need to live?
And I, I, I, I miss you, I miss you
When I am reversed, I know that I have slept
Tides that I tried to swim against
Eye-to-eye contact, it blinds me
I'm breaking down the walls, I'm coming in
Here's Johnny!
On the downlow, fuck around, lay around, ho
Kick this mothafucka!
But all I can see is this picture of you
When you came along it happened overnight
You had a boyfriend, who looked like a girlfriend
Just like Jesus stood up to those misguided Jews
And he thinks you're a nasty, naughty, sinful slut
It's really quite thrilling, that's right, now you know
Baby, you got something for me? In your wizard's sleeve
Into battle, go! Fulfill destiny of the soul!
Oh, you know that breaks my heart
I'm the meek leading the blind
We're falling apart in half-time
I can't answer the questions I'm asking myself
How cleverly you ramble, but it's too late
From delusion lead me to truth
But don't give up, because the music do
So tell all the boys and girls, tell your brother, your sister and your mama, too
Ready, steady, gimme good luck!
I think I'll find another way, it's not my time to go
Unsafe cheerleaders, porn poms and pipe bombs
Well I don't like your tragic sighs, as if your god had passed you by
Don't you know I tried so hard to love you in my way?
It's known to be cruel and unfair, there is no place to hide
Don't you think I know you'd follow whomever, has what you want?
You think you're in control but you make me sick
Now every time I think about you I die
And while they've never been more right can't someone tell me when will love come home
Because we know what is coming when dawn breaks
We'll never feel bad anymore
Why do they gotta front?
You're so sexy, honey, you're so sexy
Go ask your goddess if you served her well
Make a whole new religion, a fallen star that you cannot live without
You bleed just to know you're alive
I alone love you, I alone
And I couldn't help her, I just watched her make the same mistakes again
If it's just for today, maybe tomorrow
I'll take you down the only road I've ever been down
To see the lights all faded, and that heaven is overrated
Does an angel contemplate my fate?
I don't believe that anybody feels the way I do about you, now
In the end, it doesn't even matter
You were just like me with someone disappointed in you
It's not the way that I had imagined it all in my mind
I just can't look, it's killing me and taking control
Trying hard to reach out, but when I tried to speak out
When the city sleeps and I'm the only one, I walk alone
Find nothing but faith in nothing
There's nothing but the rain, no footsteps on the ground
I heard your voice through a photograph
'Cause she knows who I am
Imagine there's no heaven
And you give, and you give, and you give yourself away
But most of all, I like the way you move
To sell him to other men to make us rich and famous!
I promise on my damned soul, to do as I am told
And I am not stupid like you
Fallin' asleep from our vanity might cost us our lives
I know I'd better stop trying
If I knew there was a chance
Insanity is all around us
Now I know I will make it
Is it a sin to seek the truth?
You've washed your hands, you've made that all too clear
Too soon she saw that her hands were chained
Enchanted, I will have to stay
Now I find myself alone, caught in a cage
I have scaled these city walls, these city walls, only to be with you, but I still haven't found what I'm lookin' for
I still haven't loaded all my Jem and the Holograms songs, which strikes me as especially odd considering that those were a big primary reason I even wanted a stupid I-pod, but there you go.
My I-pod came to me used, with the previous owner's songs on it, and they're things I like well enough. I've listened to about half of them a few times. They follow a general theme. Even if you don't listen to them closely, they're love songs. Most of the trance ones follow that "Your love! Keeps liftin' me higher" sentiment. There were a few angry break-up alternative rock songs hiding at the bottom, and sad pop and rock songs in-between. It made me wonder things. Like whether the I-pod had followed its owner through a relationship, or if that was their view of the world. What it all meant.
It occurs to me that we can learn about people from the themes and snippets they keep in their I-pods. After all, we listen to them without the interference of others, and if one wants, one can spend hours changing the track order, volume level, album sorting priority...The options are myriad and personal.
I've put things in it of my own, here or there, slowly. And the timbre's different. To start with, I like it louder than the previous owner; my songs are harder for the most part. Even the sappy ones have a thicker bassline or something going on with the percussion. There's an odd, wounded-hippie vibe to my sad songs. My angry songs are the big, overblown anthems that the sulky kids loved when we were all in school together AND TRENT REZNOR WAS OMG BRAND NEW COOL. Some things do not change.
I had to listen to them puddled together by the way iTunes handles songs that just get tossed in and not sorted in order to see the patterns emerging. Between the tracks is a general feeling that the universe is impersonal, but intimate, and harsh, but not unfair on purpose. (My fascination for things revolving around states of change has not appeared. It may, later on, as my collection improves, but I'm not sure.)
Emancipation is not independence, and independence is not power, and power is all about abuses and excess of various kinds.
I'm such a cheerful person. XD
Lyrically: one line from every single song* on my I-pod!
*that has lyrics. Also, some are couplets, or technically two lines. Most are out of sequence.
How 'bout that tricky music
I'm not a woman, I'll make your world cold
I want to push it right over the line
Confusion holds my head, and still you hold me
The everlasting scream is on the way
Anybody with a heart votes love
She moves right through me, her wicked ramble way
Don't forget, you are alive, you are alive
I feel wonderful, I could skydive from the moon
Come on, use it, let's get through it
I'm your monster, what's hiding in your shadow
Sometimes, you just get lucky
Take second best, put me to the test
Does it make you want to cry?
Why can't you let me be the way I was before, the way I was before
I don't even care about the way I feel today
My father's on his knees again, and he never told no lies
God is god, god is god, god is god
In studded crown, this thief of souls
I've felt this way before, so insecure
And it's comin' round, to run away, or disappear
They're all there and all they see is nothin' new
How much of you will there be left for me to save?
I put your letters upstairs, but it's no good because you're everywhere
Hey, smilin' strange, you're lookin' happily deranged
She sleeps with her saddle on, gets up and rides at dawn, nobody knows what's wrong
Summer baby, come on baby, show me the town
I see stars! Can you see them, too?
I have nothing to give, I have so much to lose
And I get caught up when the rage in me subsides
I took a walk around the world to ease my troubled mind
This is how it's meant to be, I just want you to believe
Diving, whatever it may take, I keep on trying
Take me away, a million miles away from here
I'm tired of thinking, afraid of letting go, where's the meaning?
Next time there's a rainbow, LOOK UP! You'll feel better
He didn't even say goodbye, he didn't take the time to lie
There's nothing but the rain, no footsteps on the ground
Three o' clock in the morning when my mind is dawning, I remember what I've done and I cry
'Til I can get my satisfaction, my satisfaction, my satisfaction
Hold your head up, movin' on
Has he taken any time to show you what you need to live?
And I, I, I, I miss you, I miss you
When I am reversed, I know that I have slept
Tides that I tried to swim against
Eye-to-eye contact, it blinds me
I'm breaking down the walls, I'm coming in
Here's Johnny!
On the downlow, fuck around, lay around, ho
Kick this mothafucka!
But all I can see is this picture of you
When you came along it happened overnight
You had a boyfriend, who looked like a girlfriend
Just like Jesus stood up to those misguided Jews
And he thinks you're a nasty, naughty, sinful slut
It's really quite thrilling, that's right, now you know
Baby, you got something for me? In your wizard's sleeve
Into battle, go! Fulfill destiny of the soul!
Oh, you know that breaks my heart
I'm the meek leading the blind
We're falling apart in half-time
I can't answer the questions I'm asking myself
How cleverly you ramble, but it's too late
From delusion lead me to truth
But don't give up, because the music do
So tell all the boys and girls, tell your brother, your sister and your mama, too
Ready, steady, gimme good luck!
I think I'll find another way, it's not my time to go
Unsafe cheerleaders, porn poms and pipe bombs
Well I don't like your tragic sighs, as if your god had passed you by
Don't you know I tried so hard to love you in my way?
It's known to be cruel and unfair, there is no place to hide
Don't you think I know you'd follow whomever, has what you want?
You think you're in control but you make me sick
Now every time I think about you I die
And while they've never been more right can't someone tell me when will love come home
Because we know what is coming when dawn breaks
We'll never feel bad anymore
Why do they gotta front?
You're so sexy, honey, you're so sexy
Go ask your goddess if you served her well
Make a whole new religion, a fallen star that you cannot live without
You bleed just to know you're alive
I alone love you, I alone
And I couldn't help her, I just watched her make the same mistakes again
If it's just for today, maybe tomorrow
I'll take you down the only road I've ever been down
To see the lights all faded, and that heaven is overrated
Does an angel contemplate my fate?
I don't believe that anybody feels the way I do about you, now
In the end, it doesn't even matter
You were just like me with someone disappointed in you
It's not the way that I had imagined it all in my mind
I just can't look, it's killing me and taking control
Trying hard to reach out, but when I tried to speak out
When the city sleeps and I'm the only one, I walk alone
Find nothing but faith in nothing
There's nothing but the rain, no footsteps on the ground
I heard your voice through a photograph
'Cause she knows who I am
Imagine there's no heaven
And you give, and you give, and you give yourself away
But most of all, I like the way you move
To sell him to other men to make us rich and famous!
I promise on my damned soul, to do as I am told
And I am not stupid like you
Fallin' asleep from our vanity might cost us our lives
I know I'd better stop trying
If I knew there was a chance
Insanity is all around us
Now I know I will make it
Is it a sin to seek the truth?
You've washed your hands, you've made that all too clear
Too soon she saw that her hands were chained
Enchanted, I will have to stay
Now I find myself alone, caught in a cage
I have scaled these city walls, these city walls, only to be with you, but I still haven't found what I'm lookin' for
I still haven't loaded all my Jem and the Holograms songs, which strikes me as especially odd considering that those were a big primary reason I even wanted a stupid I-pod, but there you go.
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Date: 2007-07-15 03:40 pm (UTC)(I have, like, 2500 songs on my iPod, so I'd do this, but it would take me the rest of my life.)
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Date: 2007-07-17 12:07 am (UTC)It's cool 'cause ya gotta keep coming up with different-sounding bits to get the seams to go together right.